from 8pm of friday, may5 to 4pm of sat, may6 i was with these guys doing a crazy video shoot for kneel on nails’ song Milano.
here are pics:
http://skimok.multiply.com/photos/album/59
http://mickeyboe.multiply.com/photos/album/8
http://mickeyboe.multiply.com/photos/album/9
we had no sleep, mind you.
hi guys.
darn you bosconians. (well with a few exceptions ofcourse..)
waking up 6:37am on a saturday means a bad thing. well for me, anyways. its really hard because i want to say a lot of things but i’m sure i wont be able to let them all out.
i just never thought i’d experience it. trust me, i never thought about it. see, maybe that was the wrong part. i made myself believe that i’d never let myself be used by anybody. i learned that can never happen because there will always be someone who will no matter how safe or careful you are being. damn, i wasnt prepared for it and it hurt real bad. its sad really because i liked this person. i just thought he was different and all. but boy, now i wish i never met him. i dont make myself fall for anybody that easily because i find it hard to trust people. when i met him, i let my guards down but i guess he just took it for granted.
well.. i’m not sure i have any conclusions to this but i can say that i have learned my lesson, the hard way.
i hate being like this. its the suckiest feeling in the world.
so… in a month i’ll be leaving high school behind. what or how do i feel? i dunno. well, ok. i know a bit. first, i feel really really great because i’m leaving those people who make my life a living hell. like, i dont have to see them almost everyday anymore. i just cant express how much that feels AWESOME right now. second, i’m scared because ofcourse, i dont know how college will be for me. actually i’m scared because of the school that i will go to in college. see, the fact is, ashamed as i am to admit it, i unfortunately didnt pass the schools i wanted to be in but, i kinda have St. Scho there for me whether i pass their entrance test or not. basta, its complicated. its not that i dont think St. Scho is a great school because it is. my family is made up of almni Scholasticans. its just that, its not my choice. but whatever. i just want to get to college already. haha. goodluck to me!
oh wow. i’ve recently addicted myself to downloading songs from Limewire. its so freakin’ easy. thanks to my cousin, Martina. woohoo! i can get all the songs i want without the expense. haha
i hate my freakin’ school! i really do! would you believe that our classes end on dec. 22 then we come back jan.3?? thats so full of crap! where’s the vacation in that?? argh!. so many work to do. the deadlines are already nearing. so little time and limited resources. gosh im so lucky.
when you ask me how much i treasure my friends, i will tell you, "I will treasure them all my life!". though disappointingly i have shown this kind of "care" to only a number of my friends.. when i am with this one particular person, i have a good time so much because everything about her, i love it. i mean, its really cool to have this one person in your life who always makes your day, makes you laugh all the time, who can somewhat take your mistakes(though i absolutely hate this when they blame her on something i stupidly did), your ka-kwentuhan with almost about everything! its really nice having her around kasi she’s, little by little, changing the pace of my life. also, its not only her eh, its with the guidance of her family also. see? from her, it becomes "her" with her family. this is one of those times when you say "he/she had this big impact on my life" or sometimes "if it were’nt for them i wouldnt be who i am today". there are people lang talaga who cant help but change you nga.. for the better ah. i mean, when do you ever get the chance that there comes this family that will help you through your spiritual needs when what your own family cant offer you? so i took this big step in trusting them that i will be in good hands and i really did. actually, i’m more in good hands, i’m in great care of these people that i really feel as though i am part of their family. in fact, i’ve started considering them my extended family.
this excerpt opened my eyes…
"Love… It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build all these defenses, you build up this whole armor, for years. So nothing can hurt you, then, one stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… You give them a piece of you. They dont ask for it. they do something dumb like kiss you, smile at you, and then your life isnt your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out abd leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like, ‘maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘how perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. Its a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love".
-Rose Walker in The Sandman: The Kindly Ones
so.. 2 more nights to go.. my outfit is ready to go.. i wonder how i will look like, kce its something that i will wear for the first time.. i’m really glad that my lola lent me her very pretty shawl from bangkok. i hope it goes well with my dress.. well, this christmas, i’m very pink. haha. that goes for my dress, shoes, shawl, make-up… yeah.. very pink. i’m really crazy for footspas nowadays.. thanks to my tita who introduced me to it.. now three days ago, i invited my kid cousin to go to this salon who gives footspas for only 99php! so we tried it out to see if 99php for footspas is enough.. surprisingly, it was great. if only she had given more pressure to the massage part and srcubbed a little more on the footscrubbing part.. well yeah.. anyways it was relaxing.. so after that my kid cousin and i went to sinigang express to have something to eat.. i’ve always wanted to eat there and see if the food is as great as the people say it is.. so we got our table, ordred(i had tapsilog, my couz had liempsilog), and waited.. so on our table were this sauce(which i considered as vinegar), another kind of ssuce that i didnt know, toothpicks, and tissues… when my order arrived first, i already put the vinegar in my food so i can eat it by the time my couz had hers.. so when her order arrived, she put a hell lot of the "vinegar" in her food.. she tasted it.. it was very spicy daw.. so what? thats why you put it for right?? i said to her "its ok. its just vinegar." she said it wasnt. i told her it was. so after a few more arguments, she finally gave up. yey!. haha. so we ate our food already. then these other customers arrived and sat on the next table. they took their orders and everything.. and then this guy form that table asked, "meron ba kayong suka?" then the waitress got this bottle that looked different from the bottle of "vinegar" that i considered. so we(my couz and i) were puzzled. i asked the waitress what we had on that bottle. "ah. chili sauce po yan", she said. omg. that was so spicy. and my 12 year old cousin is technically smarter than me. haha.
so.. its dec.19.. a few days to go and we’ll be celebrating christmas.. as if people dont know that yet.. ahhhh!!!!! i wanna meet the Itchyworms already!! chino, wait for me ah! ehehehe.. kidding.. so hmm.. i’m really happy cause i already have my fave songs… yey!.. i’m really happy also kasi i was invited to the christmas party of Soupstar ent.. you just dont know how cool that is..i mean, you’ll be celebrating a christmas party with bands like, Sandwich, 6Cyclemind, Imago, Blue Ketchup, Protein Shake, and more…. i just cant imagine how fun that be… so as the year ends, i must say that this year isnt just any ordinary year for me… i mean, hello?? this year, i was so inclined with music than i ever was and i’m so happy about it.. yes, there were ups and downs; friendships, family, academics, and all those… but, i must say that it changed me.. maybe for the good or the bad.. but still, it changed me.. my perspective in things are much more definite now and thats thanks to this one family who’s now become a big part of my life. they made me more closer to God. even though we dont have the same religion, i really really respect theirs. i even try to attend their meetings and honestly i understand theirs more. within their religion, i get to know more of God and our purpose in life.
