Archive for December, 2005

a new outlook on the “L” word..

Thursday, December 29th, 2005

this excerpt opened my eyes…

"Love… It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build all these defenses, you build up this whole armor, for years. So nothing can hurt you, then, one stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… You give them a piece of you. They dont ask for it. they do something dumb like kiss you, smile at you, and then your life isnt your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out abd leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like, ‘maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘how perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. Its a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love".
-Rose Walker in The Sandman: The Kindly Ones

2 nights to go…

Wednesday, December 21st, 2005

so.. 2 more nights to go.. my outfit is ready to go.. i wonder how i will look like, kce its something that i will wear for the first time.. i’m really glad that my lola lent me her very pretty shawl from bangkok. i hope it goes well with my dress.. well, this christmas, i’m very pink. haha. that goes for my dress, shoes, shawl, make-up… yeah.. very pink. i’m really crazy for footspas nowadays.. thanks to my tita who introduced me to it.. now three days ago, i invited my kid cousin to go to this salon who gives footspas for only 99php! so we tried it out to see if 99php for footspas is enough.. surprisingly, it was great. if only she had given more pressure to the massage part and srcubbed a little more on the footscrubbing part.. well yeah.. anyways it was relaxing.. so after that my kid cousin and i went to sinigang express to have something to eat.. i’ve always wanted to eat there and see if the food is as great as the people say it is.. so we got our table, ordred(i had tapsilog, my couz had liempsilog), and waited.. so on our table were this sauce(which i considered as vinegar), another kind of ssuce that i didnt know, toothpicks, and tissues… when my order arrived first, i already put the vinegar in my food so i can eat it by the time my couz had hers.. so when her order arrived, she put a hell lot of the "vinegar" in her food.. she tasted it.. it was very spicy daw.. so what? thats why you put it for right?? i said to her "its ok. its just vinegar." she said it wasnt. i told her it was. so after a few more arguments, she finally gave up. yey!. haha. so we ate our food already. then these other customers arrived and sat on the next table. they took their orders and everything.. and then this guy form that table asked, "meron ba kayong suka?" then the waitress got this bottle that looked different from the bottle of "vinegar" that i considered. so we(my couz and i) were puzzled. i asked the waitress what we had on that bottle. "ah. chili sauce po yan", she said. omg. that was so spicy. and my 12 year old cousin is technically smarter than me. haha.

lifehouse

Sunday, December 18th, 2005


so.. its dec.19.. a few days to go and we’ll be celebrating christmas.. as if people dont know that yet.. ahhhh!!!!! i wanna meet the Itchyworms already!! chino, wait for me ah! ehehehe.. kidding.. so hmm.. i’m really happy cause i already have my fave songs… yey!.. i’m really happy also kasi i was invited to the christmas party of Soupstar ent.. you just dont know how cool that is..i mean, you’ll be celebrating a christmas party with bands like, Sandwich, 6Cyclemind, Imago, Blue Ketchup, Protein Shake, and more…. i just cant imagine how fun that be… so as the year ends, i must say that this year isnt just any ordinary year for me… i mean, hello?? this year, i was so inclined with music than i ever was and i’m so happy about it.. yes, there were ups and downs; friendships, family, academics, and all those… but, i must say that it changed me.. maybe for the good or the bad.. but still, it changed me.. my perspective in things are much more definite now and thats thanks to this one family who’s now become a big part of my life. they made me more closer to God. even though we dont have the same religion, i really really respect theirs. i even try to attend their meetings and honestly i understand theirs more. within their religion, i get to know more of God and our purpose in life.